Story of my life.

Erika's Birthday Weekend

2007-09-30T12:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th Birthday Erika!

Letting Go

2007-09-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

Friday Nights

2007-09-21T23:56:00.000-07:00

Meli ,"Lets take it without our shirts!"
Kimmy, "I don't have a bra on."
Karen, "Like this?"

Hot girls in a jacuzzi.

Hot girls in a jacuzzi, again.

Hot girls in a jacuzzi again and again.

Cuties in Kimmy's room.

Kimmy's kitchen.

Kimmy's kitchen, again.

Hotties on Kimmy's bed.

One 2 three pass.

This is our album cover, haha.

Cuties chilling.

Cuties chilling, again.

Dropped a piece of a banana.

HOLLA! Karen's first shot that night.

Dare: Put wax on your foot.

Ended up being Kimmy and my dare.

PENIS!

Hand models?

Fixing the door.

Dare: lick the kitchen ceiling.

Lets stand on the table.

KINGS!

Dare: eat that.

Kimmy's dare.

Dare: eat that.

Karen's dare.

The goods.

Bartender.

Pina coladas.

KKM

Getting ready.

Getting ready, again.

Getting ready again and again.

Quarter-Life Crisis

2007-09-21T23:18:00.002-07:00

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender. We're in the best of times and the worst of times.